People Always Leave

smile_loudx @ 2005-12-04T19:00:00

2005-12-05T00:01:24Z

Alright folks. This journal is DONE. El finito. If you want to still read, go to my new journal. makeus_itx . Comment there and your added. Yayaya

_Had to let go to find today

2005-11-25T22:49:34Z

Your breaking through my boundaries
doodoodoo

So I was just looking over my other journal. My old one. I had so much more to say back then. People liked reading with what I wrote. So Im gonna make you love what I'm writing right now. mhm.

What does it mean when theres a boy, that you dont necessarily like, yet you avoid him in the halls anyways. And you don't avoid him because you hate him, or dislike him. And you dont avoid him because you think he's awesome. You just dont like that little awkward exchange of Hello and his wierd little wave nod thing that drives you absoutely crazy.

But anyways. I did a survey type of thing a few weeks ago. To see if I was intimidating. The results pretty much led me to believe that I am. I dont even know why. I mean I dont look intimidating looks wise. Curly hair, blue eyes? Hardly scary. But then someone said that because I dont look intimidating, as soon i talk it's like "holy shit this girl is serious" type of thing. Meh. Iv'e come a long way. I really have.

Seriously. I used to be this little timid huge-eyed child who sat at the hopscotch things crying because her grandfather died, when really it happened three years before she was even born. And then I cried for three hours when this girl I didn't knows mom died because her mom was a really great person yet I never knew her. I used to 'coach' my 'boyfriend' in grade two for the 'olympics' and that same boy laughed at my face and told me I looked like a boy two years later. This was all very traumatic for me. In grade five I had to learn what it was like to loose a friend. Really loose a friend. And then I moved in with my nonna for seven months while we waited for our house to be built, living in basically one tiny room for all of that time. Grade six and I didnt care what you thought about me. I pretended I had a goldfish named Mimo living in my brain and I danced and acted stupid and some people hated me and some people love me. I used to think I could write beautiful poetry because I was tired of being an OK dancer and an OK swimmer and an OK student. Then I realized im an OK poet who can't get anything meaningful down. And now I dont really tell you whats going on until I get an impossible math test and break down because suddenlly I cant remember y=mx+b and all that other stuff.

So Iv'e come a long way. And Im kinda just figuring that all out when I look back on old stuff and just think.."so what if this didn't happen..?"

basically the score is
Life: 1
Cassie: 3

_reasons like seasons they constantly change

2005-11-21T00:19:00Z

Guess what?

CASSIE HAS A DOGGIE

Theo my lovellyyy

Its sideways. I know. But omigosh soo cuuteeee

_theres nothing that can stop you, from becoming popular..lar.

2005-11-19T18:46:39Z

What Would You Do If..
1Â» I died from natural causes..
2Â» I kissed you..
3Â» I lived next door to you:
4Â» I started smoking..
5Â» I stole something..
6Â» I was hospitalized..
7Â» I ran away from home..
8Â» I got into a fight and you weren't there?..

What Do You Think Of My..
9Â» Personality..
10Â» Eyes..
11Â» Hair..
12Â» Smile..
13Â» Family..

Would You..
14Â» Be my friend?..
15Â» Keep a secret if I told you one?..
16Â» Hold my hand?..
17Â» Take a bullet for me?..
18Â» Keep in touch?..
19Â» Try and solve my problems?..
20Â» Love me?..
21Â» Date me?..

Have You Ever..
22Â» Lied to make me feel better?..
23Â» Wanted to kiss me?..
24Â» Wanted to kill me?..
25Â» Broke my heart?..
26Â» Kept something important from me?..
27Â» Thought I was unbearably annoying?..

Random Stuff..
28Â» Who are you?..
29Â» Are we friends?..
30Â» When and how did we meet?..
31Â» Describe me in one word..
32Â» What was your first impression?..
33Â» Do you still think that way about me now?..
34Â» What reminds you of me?..
35Â» If you could give me anything what would it be?..
36Â» How well do you know me?..
37Â» When's the last time you saw me?..
38Â» Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?..
39Â» Are you gonna put this on yours to see what I say about you?...

smile_loudx @ 2005-11-16T22:15:00

2005-11-17T03:17:25Z

This just suddenly came to mind, thought I'd share it.

You know when its mainly cloudy in the sky, kind of darker outside? And you know when on those days, theres like a parting in the sky, and the sun shines through in that spot and everything is all eluminated? When I was little, I always used to think that was Heaven, and someone was going up there.

I dont what brought that on. I just found it kind of neat.

smile_loudx @ 2005-11-12T15:56:00

2005-11-12T20:59:15Z

reasons like seasons
they constantly change
and the seasons of last year
like reasons have floated away
away with this spilt milk
away with this dirty dish water, away
seventeen years,
and all that he gave was a
daughter

_Maybe your gonna be the one that saves me

2005-11-11T02:17:03Z

I thought it was a lot later than it is.
I'm not sure why, I was just about to go to sleep and then I saw it said 9:13 and I changed my mind. But i might want to go to sleep anyways. Kind of drained for no apparent reason.
So. Midterms back. Not too bad, actually. Im pretty happy. I think I even said at one point that my life is complete and I could die now and I wouldn't care.
Haha. Yes what a life I have.
So Mark has this party thing tomorrow and I think maybe ten people have asked me why Im not going. Im not gonna even get into that stuff anymore. I tried before and it ended up making me upset so why bother when Im happy with who I hang out with right now.
It's a pretty good way of thinking if I do say so myself.

OH EHM GEE

2005-11-02T02:19:27Z

1. Hit random on your music; try not to use the same artists.
2. Write lyrics from 15 songs. Don't make it too easy!
3. Get everyone to guess the songs. No using google or lyric sheets to guess.

01.Oh shadow love was quick and clean, life's a well thumbed machine
02.and its been autumn since the day that I met you- 21 and invincible, Something corporate
03.The rain, it started tapping on the window near my bed There was a loophole in my dreaming
04.Dont tell me you dont know what love it when your old enough to know better
05.Shes got it going on dancing to her favourite song-Geeks get the Girls, American Hi Fi
06.Let's call this the quiet city: Where screams are felt as a wave of stoplights
07.Sing me something soft, sad and delicate, or loud and out of key. Sing me anything
08.One devotion to an empty moment.Can't you stay tonight?
09. Shakin, like a doh shittin razorblades, waking up next to nothing- Radio, Alkaline Trio
10.in a pain that buckles out your knees could you stop this if i plead (you got it)
11.Always remember the sound of the stereo. The dim of the soft lights.
12.Boys, you can break .You find out how much they can take
13.on and on we sing this song the entire day thats oh so long
every night we sing this song for you
14.Where oh where could my baby be, the lord took her away from me, shes gone to heaven so Iv'e got to be good
15.My tongue is tied to a dream of being with you .To settle for less is not what I prefer

Wee

2005-10-18T01:17:28Z

5 YEARS AGO:

1. I was in grade four
2. I lost my best friend
3. All of those stupid electronic pets were incredibly popular
4. I had really short hair
5. I had no life

1 YEAR AGO:

1. Was kinda rough
2. I was in grade eight
3. Couldnt decide who my friends were
4. I was getting higher marks
5. Was very different?

YESTERDAY:

1. Was Sunday
2. I was at my grandmothers
3. I watched Clueless with my cousin
4. I had the best cookies eveerrrr
5. Baddd mood.

5 SNACKS I ENJOY:

1. Chocolate. Yum.<3
2. Gum. Yep
3. Doritos. Im craving them like crazzyyy
4. MUFFINS
5. Cookies.

5 SONGS I KNOW ALL OF THE WORDS TO:

1. Konstantine by Something Corporate. Thats an acomplishment. Its a very long song<3
2. Sugar Were Going down- Fall out Boy
3. Set Phasers to Stun- TBS
4. Accidently in Love- Counting Crows
5. Radio- Alkaline Trio

WHAT I WOULD DO
WITH 100 MILLION DOLLARS:

1. Material stuff. So a bunch of clothes. lots and lots. Lipgloss.Yum.xD
2. Start my own charity organisation, or donate a bunch
3. Help any family members finanitially
4. Car<3
5. TRAVEL TONS AND TAKE ALL MY FRIENDS OH EHM GEE

5 PLACES I WOULD RUN AWAY TO:

1. Being three again and adorable
2. Pine Crest.
3. Greece.
4. Alanas house.xD. I wonder if she'll see this
5. i dont feel like running away.mkthxbai

5 THINGS I WOULD NEVER WEAR:

1. Mkay. So anything fish-netty..on my arms. ew. Never
2. A headscarf
3. Anything from stores such as Hot topic. Scary. Nothankyou
4. Those huge holes. That go in your years. the spacers. Its not cool to walk around with this huge ass hole in your ear. No thanks.
5. Grandma clothes?

FAVORITE TV SHOWS:

1. One tree hill
2. Gilmore Girls
3.ANTM? Well. Not really. But its something
4. Much music
5. Radio free roscoe. Or Zoey 101.xD

FAVORITE BOOKS

1. Awake and Dreaming
2. An Earthly Night
3. The truth about forever
4. My Lullaby
5. Candy

BAD HABITS:

1. Playing with my hair
2. Repeating myself
3. Being obsessive compulsive about my hair
4. Saying things I shouldnt?
5. Rolling my eyes

5 BIGGEST JOYS:

1. Music fo sho
2. Going out with people I care about and who care about Mee. Awh. Which goes along with friends
3. When I can be completely stupid and funny and I know the people Im with wont walk away fromme
4. Shopping. Guilty pleasure
5. Icecream

5 FAVORITE TOYS:

1. My beautiful ipod
2. My digital camera. love it.
3. Internet<3
4. Electric sharpeners
5. Game cube

5 FICTIONAL CHARACTERS I WOULD DATE:

1. Willy Wonka.xD
2. Wes from The Truth about Forever
3. Frodo. Ahaha
4. --
5. --

5 PEOPLE I TAG TO DO THIS:

1. You
2. You.
3. Your mom.
4. Your cousin
5. You.

Oh ehm gee? Updating?

2005-10-16T19:12:47Z

IF you reply to this -
1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.

smile_loudx @ 2005-09-20T21:21:00

2005-09-21T01:45:25Z

So, I havent updated in forever, school has been fun and life is good. I went to go get pictures developed from camp. The guy at loblaws was so nice. He said that seeing my pictures made his day.So, he gave me two albums, tripples of the pictures, and another disposable camera.So maybe thats a sign.

I stole this from alana

Bold the ones that are true, add three, and post this in your journal!

01. I have a cell phone.
02. I'm obsessed with high heels.
03. I am the youngest child
04. I am a shopoholic.
05. I love hoop earrings.
06. I am a libra
07. I love beer.
09. I can't live without lip gloss.
10. I can't live without music.
11. I lived in Purgatory for 3 months.
12. I spend money I don't have. (according to my parents)
13. I'll be in college forever.
14. I've seen Jason Mraz.
15. I get annoyed easily.
16. I eventually want kids.
18. I have more then a couple of horrible memories.
19. I am addicted to Lizzie McGuire.
20. I am a person.
21. My first kiss was when I was 18.
22. I start film school in February.
23. I love taking pictures.
24. I hate girls who are fake.
25. I can be mean when I want to.
26. My dreams are bizarre.
27. One of my close friends is gay.
28. I have way too many purses.
29. I've seen 'Fight Club' at least 45 times.
30. I usually dress how I feel that day.
31. I love 'Sex and the City'.
32. Sometimes I cry for almost no reason.
33. I hate when people are late.
34. I procrastinate. way too much
35. I love winter
36. I have too many clothes for my closet/dresser.
37. I love to sleep
38. I wish I were smarter.
39. I'm afraid of ...flying.
40. I hate drama.
41. I am addicted to 'The O.C.'
42. I love my ...hair.
43. I (almost) never fight with my parents.
44. I love the beach.
45. I have never had the chicken pox.
46. I'm excited for the future.
47. I can't control my emotions.
48. I can't wait till New Year's.
49. I love the show 'Rich Girls'.
50. I love my friends.
51. Christmas is my favorite holiday.
52. I can be very insecure sometimes.
53. I have never broken a bone.
54. I hate racist people...
55. I hate my computer.
56. I love boys that play the guitar.
57. I state the obvious.
58. I'm a happy person.
59. I love to dance.
60. I love to read.
61. I hate cleaning my room
62. I tend to get jealous very easily.
63. I love cute underwear.
64. I love John Mayer.
65. I cry when I see animals/people getting hurt/abused.
66. I want to go to Greece.
67. I don't like to study for tests.
68. I am too forgiving
69. I have a horrible sense of direction.
70. I love(d) high school.
71. I have a talent of sweet-talking my way out of things.
72. I'm a daddy's girl.
73. I love kisses on the forehead.
74. I'm Hungarian.
75. I love the color pink.
76. I love to sew.
77. I have green eyes.
78. I love the Olsen Twins.
79. I played soccer for 14 years.
80. I become stressed easily.
81. I hate liars.
82. I like comfy sweatpants.
83. Paul Walker is my dream guy.
84. I love the smell of asphalt after it's rained.
85. I love my family.
86. I hate needles.
87. I am a perfectionist.
88. I always wanted to learn to play the drums.
91. I would love to have my own fashion line.
92. I can be quite selfish.
93. I still act like a little kid.
94. I despise dishonesty.
95. I love pictures.
96. I love music.
97. I wish I were more motivated when it comes to school.
98. I love getting stuff in the mail.
99. I have problems letting go of people.
100. I hate the feeling of being alone.
101. I don't want to be married.
102. I hate the fact that my size 10 jeans are tight.
103. I've never watched "Sex and the City" and I don't really care if I do.
104. I really don't want to add three things to this list.
105. So I won't.
106. I love Harry Potter.
107. I am patient.
108. I like bunnies.
109. I often think before I speak and then regret it. (i wish i did think before i spoke sometimes)
110. I love summer.
111. I miss my friends (from school) whom I haven't seen for a while.
112. I have lived in New Mexico.
113. I love water.
114. There are criminals in my family
115. The internet is my other home.
116. I think typing is fun.
117. I want to be famous one day.
118. Barbie is soooo cool!
119. Isn't dark curly ...hair just adorable? I HAD it! I have it...Well its light
120. Im left handed
121. I love my best friends.
122. I straighten my hair sometimes.
123. I've never been out of the country.
124. I love reading books on the hammock.
125. I live for HOOOOT bubble baths.
126. I hate how summer is the shortest season.
127. I love dyeing my hair.
128. I love the city life
129. I have a best friend who I can 100% trust.
130. I have a headache right now.
131. I'm going to a party tonight.
132. I love Jesus.
133. I love history
134. I live in a small town.
135. I have a dog, and it is very fat.
136. I have a dog, and she is very cute/loveable!
137. I like lactose free sorbet icecrea,
138. I'm afraid of the past
139. I love my cats!
140. I have too many books for my bookshelves.
141. I am an aunt.
142. If I go to bed with a fever, I'm guaranteed to experience delirium.
143. I've been a patient in the intensive care unit of a hospital.
144. I actually do care about ensuring fair and humane treatment for Saddam Hussein.
145. I like to ...buy books, not borrow them.
146. I like things that sparkle.
147. I would rather do something than let someone do it for me.
148. Weasley is my King.
149. I want to live in London.
150. I love watching TV
151. I took ballet for 6 years. ...
152. I have an extremely large extended family.
153. I love my car
154. I love stars
155. I have only one brother.
156. My name begins with S.
157. I HATE President Bush
158. I like the smell of cigarette smoke
159. I love yellowm_m's journal
160. I wish I looked like Britney Spears.
161. Tiaras are my favorite accesory.
162. Boys are my biggest weakness tied with food
163. Walking on the beach at night
164. I hate the rain.
165. I love the sunsets
166. my past 4 boyfriends have all had four letters in their first name.
167. my favorite drink from starbucks is caramel apple cider
168. i'm a march baby <3
169. I currently really like a guy.. and I seriously think he stole my heart, but I'm afraid he'll destroy it.
170. I want to get (have) an upper back tattoo and am saving money right now!
171. I'm almost positive I'm gettin boob implants after I turn 21 and have the money
172. I like ...a few older guys.
173. I love getting mixed CDs
174. It's raining right now
175. My favorite color is green and pink
176. I've had the same best friend for at least 7 years
177. I like Lindsay Lohan's movies, but think she's a spoiled brat
178. i have gone out with more than 1 guy with the same name
179. i have been to the atlantis hotel in the bahamas
180.I listen to country music
181.I love snorkeling/ scuba diving
182.2 i'm obsessed with the movie finding nemo
183. i've never had a cavity.
184. I am completely OBSESSED with burberry.
185. I've moved to NJ from NY
186. My boyfriend's name is Andrew.
187. I miss someone right now
188. I hate to run
189. I'm preppy?
90. My name starts with a E
191. Coach and Vera Bradley are my favorites
192. I think Paris Hilton is entertaining.
193. I think Gwen Stefani has a wicked fashion sense.
194. I live on Long Island.
195. I think the idea of a tsunami is sooo scary.
196. i am obsessed with dangly earrings
197. i'm a lush
198. i smoke marlboro reds.
199. Im hot right now.
200. I'm obessed with Tangerine sours.
201. I've never tried pot before but probably will.
202. I have an obsession with tanning.
203. I love alcohol with a passion.
204. I am still a virgin
205. Marilyn Monroe is my idol.
206. I love looking at DIY sites.
207. I own at least 1 livestrong bracelet.
208.I love buying rings
209. I am surprisingly unorganized.
210. I miss my childhood.
211. I wish about love even when I act like I dont care
212. I love people watching
213. Im almost obsessive-complusive about my hair.

smile_loudx @ 2005-08-12T09:44:00

2005-08-12T13:45:37Z

Well folks, I'm off to camp for 12 days with Alana so, I love you too and I hope the rest of your summer is going prettttty awesome. Because, I don't know when I'll be back (might go to Cottage with Alana, depending on what happens and all).

Love you, muffins.xD

<3Cassieee

smile_loudx @ 2005-06-30T22:13:00

2005-07-01T02:13:36Z

01. reply with your name and I will write something I like about you
02. I will then tell what song/movie/icon reminds me of you
03. if I were to apply an o'clock to you, I'll tell you what it would be
04. I will try to name a single word that best describes you
05. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you
06. I will tell you what animal you remind me of
07. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you
08. put this in your journal

smile_loudx @ 2005-06-23T15:24:00

2005-06-23T19:24:55Z

You guyyys. Grad tomorrow^^

smile_loudx @ 2005-06-12T18:08:00

2005-06-12T22:08:21Z

You Were Actually Born Under:

Your most comfortable inside your head - and often daydream the day away.
You have an artistic temperament that makes you seem creative to some, eccentric to others.
You avoid conflict at all costs, and you have a difficult time with relationships.
Attractive and with good manners, you tend to shine in social situations.

You are most compatible with a Pig or Rabbit.

You Should Have Been Born Under:

You are totally loyal, faithful, and honest.
However, you don't trust others to be as ethical as you are!
Straight forward and direct, you really aren't one for small talk.
You are a great listener - and an agreeable companion when you're in a good mood!

You are most compatible with a Tiger or Horse.

What Year Were You Born Under?

smile_loudx @ 2005-05-25T16:43:00

2005-05-25T20:45:00Z

Aha. Thats right. Comment to get in.
         I'll accept anyone because I will
     Just comment and say your name as well
         as something about you. And. Be nice and say something about me. Lovely.

             <3